11 : Forever Wishes


If Christmas wishes do exist
I’ll tell you a little secret
I’ll tell you what my forever
Wish for you would be

I’d wish to be in Argentina
Living in Buenos Aires
I’d open up my home to students
Traveling from abroad
Where I would get to meet
A lovely home-stay student
A charismatic young woman
Traveling to study

     we’d sometimes have morning breakfast
     and chat about this and that
     we’d sometimes have dinner together
     and take some time to visit

     we’d become re-acquainted
     finally once again
     and we would share some stories
     of friends and family

Should I ever be so lucky
To spend more time with you
To become friends again
Or simply be mother and daughter
As we were meant to be
You should always know
Whether you’re near or far
I cherish you forever

This would be my Christmas wish
And if they don’t exist
Then my forever wish would be
For you to always be safe and happy


Why I wrote Forever Wishes:


Written a couple of years after Snowflake Kisses, just around Christmastime, Forever Wishes is another poem interpreting deep thoughts and emotions through whimsical wishes.

Very soon after writing Snowflake Kisses, I once again faced unemployment. Let go from work, just before Christmas, I held on to the apartment as long as I could. The limited savings I managed to set aside dwindled quickly, and before you graduated, I was once again homeless. I kept things appearing upbeat not to interfere with the excitement of your graduation and the plans you were making to travel abroad, but I was really tossed in a state of utter disbelief and despair.

A year passed until you returned with plans for more travels. We had a brief period of reconnecting through occasional visits, but time seemed to whiz by too quickly and then you were off again for another year.

Just as I had while writing Snowflake Kisses, I secretly wished to be traveling with you. I thought it could have been a great opportunity for us to spend some much-needed time together to reconnect as mother and daughter. I never did share that wish with you or anyone, and before I could even get a grasp of the whirlwind I was once again going through, you were off to the other end of the continent.

Forever Wishes was an attempt to express how I imagined it could have been had we ever had an opportunity to travel together. But more importantly, it states the truth and reality, that all I want is for you to be safe and happy.


How I wrote Forever Wishes:


If Christmas wishes do exist
I’ll tell you a little secret
I’ll tell you what my forever
Wish for you would be

The opening of the poem indicates the time when I wrote it – very close to Christmastime. As for the secret referred to in the second line, it’s a quick reference to the hopes l had before you even graduated – to have a chance for us to spend some meaningful time together.

When writing poetry, the initial thought often becomes the poem’s closing. From there, I work my way through the middle where I attempt to tie it all in with the beginning. This is exactly how Forever Wishes came about. The very last lines were the very first thought, which I weaved into a tale of what could’ve or might’ve been.


I’d wish to be in Argentina
Living in Buenos Aires
I’d open up my home to students
Traveling from abroad
Where I would get to meet
A lovely home-stay student
A charismatic young woman
Traveling to study

Before expressing what my true wish was, I allowed myself to wander through my imagination. This led me to interpret images of how it might have been had we had the opportunity to travel together while reconnecting the bond between us.

While writing and daydreaming, I swayed back and forth between imagining how it might be if I were the resident abroad welcoming you into my home, and as being myself if I were traveling with you. This led me to conjure up images of how we might spend our time together, and although several exciting and interesting scenarios unfolded, I chose to keep it simple.


More on how I wrote Forever Wishes:


     we’d sometimes have morning breakfast
     and chat about this and that
     we’d sometimes have dinner together
     and take some time to visit

     we’d become re-acquainted
     finally once again
     and we would share some stories
     of friends and family

Traveling abroad through the channels of my imagination, I chose to indent the following two stanzas for several reasons:
(1)   To allow a pause for the reader to take it all in;
(2)   To indicate how the imaginary scene had moved to another geographical location;
(3)   To imply that a different person is telling the tale, as though you were imagining this and adding your thoughts to the poem.

I could have written a thousand words as to how things might have been, but I condensed it into a few blocks of words expressing the most meaningful and important thing for me, which is to spend time together with you.


Should I ever be so lucky
To spend more time with you
To become friends again
Or simply be mother and daughter
As we were meant to be
You should always know
Whether you’re near or far
I cherish you forever

The use of the word “lucky” is a very light-hearted metaphor for my continued attempts to rekindle our bond as mother and daughter. The constant financial struggles I faced due to sporadic employment and the continuous threats of eviction took up most of my time and energy. Meanwhile, time kept on sliding by and accumulating into years gone by.

If I seem to harp and long for what could’ve been when referring to our mother and daughter relationship, it’s only due to the tremendous out-of-control circumstances that led to our traumatic rupture. I addressed this in more detail in a letter I sent to you – but to this day, I’m still uncertain if you ever received it or if you received any of the other letters I sent while you were traveling.


This would be my Christmas wish
And if they don’t exist
Then my forever wish would be
For you to always be safe and happy

The closing, as mentioned earlier, was actually how the poem started. It was the very first thought that came to mind when I set out to write Forever Wishes, and of course, it’s a constant wish I have for you. But it’s not the only single thought or wish I have for you – there are many, many more.


Drawing from the poem:


Forever Wishes is a poem that travels across the continent, but the drawing is as simple as the wish. The letter W takes on the shape of a heart with fairy dust brushing off the tip, and the horizontal line goes on forever, indicating never ending wishes and love.


Thank you for inspiring me to create Forever Wishes


Forever Wishes

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