10 : Snowflake Kisses


For every shooting star they say
A wish be made upon
A snowflake on your eyelashes
A dream is said comes true

So should there ever be a Christmas
Where snowflakes do not fall
Look up towards the sky at night
You’ll see a star named Calla

A star so strong and magical
So different and unique
It holds the recipe required
To whip up snowflake kisses

Made up of soft white angel feathers
And silver fairy dust
Some time and some imagination
A blink so very gentle

Now if you’re ready look at this star
Look at it for twelve seconds
Then very slowly close your eyes
Or cover them for two

Now open or uncover quickly
And soon your eyes will see
That all stars in the universe
Are snowflakes just for you


Why I wrote Snowflake Kisses:


There is a very large gap, not only in seasons, but also in the time that passed between the Arizona tales and Snowflake Kisses. Even though you were all grown up and had been away from home for some years, this poem came to be, much like other childhood poems inspired by you, and somewhat like snowflakes do.

A single idea started to float through my mind and then, as though a light dusting of snow began to fall, the single thought multiplied into hundreds of images that settled into layers of fresh white snow. Just like snowflakes, the thoughts and emotions were packed with a whole lot more than just shimmering glitters, and there is much more to the snowy tale than is actually said.

Christmas was approaching, you were preparing for graduation, and I was feeling settled again.

After returning to office work and securing a 2-bedroom apartment, I was relieved to have a safe and comfortable home for you to come to, as I always had. Thoughts of everything you might be looking forward to for the future, along with once again being in a position to support and provide for you, are only some of the many snowflake pieces to this poem.


How I wrote Snowflake Kisses:


For every shooting star they say
A wish be made upon
A snowflake on your eyelashes
A dream is said comes true

I can’t recall exactly when I decided to write Snowflake Kisses, but I do recall setting up the Christmas decorations and coming across the drawing you made, which set off a flurry of emotions and kicked-off the idea to write a snowflake tale.

Several days went by as thoughts filtered through my mind until I woke up one morning to the muffled sound of passersby on a snow-covered ground. This is when I set out to write Snowflake Kisses – while I was still in bed and watching the snow gently fall from the sky.

Although wishing upon a shooting star is based on someone else’s tale, the snowflake on your eyelashes came from a memory of seeing an actual snowflake land on your long brown lashes, which I embellished to create this tale.


So should there ever be a Christmas
Where snowflakes do not fall
Look up towards the sky at night
You’ll see a star named Calla

The snowflakes, throughout the tale, refer to several things, but the lack of snowflakes at Christmastime mostly had to do with thoughts of how difficult it might have been for you to get through Christmas’s since the day I had asked your father to take you in.

Recognizing the immense void I felt throughout the years that passed without you or without a home made it unbearable for me to think of how it might have affected you. To this day, I’m still uncertain if I ever made it clear to you that, when I asked for your Dad’s help that evening when we blew into an argument like none we’d ever had, I never meant for you to leave forever.

Overall though, creating Snowflake Kisses came from a place of joy. Although Christmas’s were seldom white on the west coast, I grew up where Christmases were always white, and recalling the amazement and excitement in your eyes whenever snow would fall, were images that made these lines come together easily.

Whether perceived as fantasized or fictional, the star I refer to is actually true. Your grandma and I gave you a star as a Christmas gift one year, through the Space Centre program, which we named after you.


More on how I wrote Snowflake Kisses:


A star so strong and magical
So different and unique
It holds the recipe required
To whip up snowflake kisses

This segment is a play on words meant to create rhythm and to keep the fantasy going, but it’s also based on very true thoughts and feelings describing how I think of you as an individual.

The second line – So different and unique – is borrowed from the title you applied to the drawing you made, which I kept close to me every moment I wrote this poem. The last two lines referring to cooking initially came from recalling how much you enjoyed cooking and baking with me while growing up. It’s also a quick reference to the new career path I attempted to take on before returning to office work, but in keeping with the snowflake tale, it’s meant to describe thoughts inspired by you and the drawing you created, which I whipped into a fairy tale for this poem.


Made up of soft white angel feathers
And silver fairy dust
Some time and some imagination
A blink so very gentle

The image that prompted me to write the line – Made up of soft white angel feathers – was quickly followed by the thought of whipping up snowflake kisses and what that might look like. As for the silver fairy dust, it came from a mix of Red Rock Fairy thoughts and Christmas decorations.

Setting fantasies aside while continuing to apply metaphors, the line – Some time and some imagination – is meant to touch on the gap in time that had passed between us, and how it seemed to disappear, just like – A blink so very gentle – now that our lives appeared to be heading into a positive direction.


Now if you’re ready look at this star
Look at it for twelve seconds
Then very slowly close your eyes
Or cover them for two

Snowflake Kisses is a good example to attempt to describe how I sometimes allow my subconscious to take the lead in order to gather and combine a heavy load of imaginary thoughts along with very real emotions.

Intentionally keeping my focus away from heavy thoughts of the past, I reverted to the star ascribed with your name and included the numbers of my birth-date to imply that wishes aren’t ever carried by one star alone.


Now open or uncover quickly
And soon your eyes will see
That all stars in the universe
Are snowflakes just for you

The ending of this poem is meant to emphasize the joy I was feeling for both of us as we looked towards the future. With your graduation coming up and now that I was finally back to a place where I had a home and a steady income, I felt as though I could once again be the supportive mother you grew up to know, and I hoped to be a part of making any of your dreams, wishes, and future goals come true.

Although Snowflake Kisses is a tale of fantasies and wishes, we both know that it takes hard work and determination to make things happen. But there is something about looking up towards the sky when snowflakes fall, and it’s sometimes difficult to avoid what appears to be rather magical.


Drawing from the poem:


The drawing, one you created while you were in the hospital, is a poem in and of itself. With the single line – every snowflake is different and unique – it encapsulates, not only the intricate and delicate differences in each snowflake, but it easily translates to the beautiful and intricate differences in each person.

Although you once expressed your embarrassment for the slight error in spelling, I hope you realize how trivial that is and how easily it can happen when lost in the creative process. Being very meticulous myself, I’ve come to recognize how certain details aren’t as important as the final outcome.


Thank you for the snowflake drawing
and thank you for inspiring me to create Snowflake Kisses


Snowflake Kisses

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